vanish mode
it's beautiful,
isn't it
kinda like snap
but for the poor ******* that don't have it
as soon as a message is seen
it just disappears
all of that texting her
pretending you didn't
showing up on WiFi bills
and the desperate smile on your lips

god
i'm so dumb
to think that anyone could love me
to think that maybe for a second
i could just breathe
knowing that someone loved me most
because that's all i wanted
i didn't want to be an alternative
just another cat call
on another lonely Tuesday night
i'm so tired of not being enough
to be the first on your mind

i'm so stupid
and so done with being numb
so ******* tired of the back burner
god ******
i let myself fall for you
i let it happen
and look where that got me
crying on the phone
typing out a poem
about you and my worse judgement

i don't know why i let us happen