of course i never forgot
i can never forget.
how could anyone not remember the horror i felt.
for nights on end,
i would lie awake,
wondering if it was his fault
or mine
some nights,
i can hear the quiet whispers,
whispering in my ear.
saying that the blame has my name.
written all over.
sometimes i dont believe it.
but sometimes i do.
sometimes i try to block it out,
and when i do,
i cant hear the whispers anymore.
but then someone will trigger the emotions
off within me.
by touching me,
by hurting me,
by forcing me to do things i never wanted to do.
and thats when the whispers are no longer whispers
but merely shouts and screams and rage filled shrieks.
and all i can do,
is listen to the voices.
say over and over again.
"the blame has your name
written all over."