I live in other people's cycles my own too spasmodic & erratic to seem rhythmic at first glance. I keep rubbing my eyes hoping to clear the fog in my mind behind them. pinch the bridge of my nose til I focus bring myself back to the moment try not to let my Contemplative Life drift me too far offshore on this shaking liferaft. Wipe the sweat from my brow push myself further, onward steady, Girl, you've got this. wear myself out photosynthesizing information punch in punch out exhaust myself &collapse; in oblivion's Forever Embrace.
I stood still and they moved on around me their motion breaking my concentration their bodies gliding against mine, this sudden **** onslaught distracting & numbing don't even notice that every time I'm touched, moved, bumped forward, my feet are forced from the silt they promised not to leave.