What happens when you lose a friend?
Does an integral piece die?
Or is it a painless procedure?
The memory of ever scheduling it has vanished.
There's no specialist that
I asked to do this to me.
First, I'm strapped to a bleach white hospital bed.
What's going on?  What is being removed?
The heart monitor beats faster,
faster,
faster,
Until denial is given to me intravenously.
Blissful denial,
Where everything is okay.
The painkillers seep into my veins -
My mind is now completely absent.
Only aware of how positively funny everything is,
I never see the mysterious injection
That knocks me out cold.
I awake the next morning.
No pain,
Just numb....
Then I remember.
There hasn't been any surgery.
No doctors.
No anesthesia.
I've lived through the excruciating process
Of losing my best friend.