Today, I want to die.
I want to vanish and leave everything behind.
I want to stop my mind from sending unwarranted thoughts,
I want to scream and scream until I’m exhausted.
Today, I want to know why I need to continue living.
I want to see why I’m still needed here,
When in fact the world will be much better without me,
And my mere existence is a burden that the world carries.
Today, I want to ask forgiveness:
to my family who never fail to show their support,
to my friends who keep on cheering me on.
I’m sorry that I’m now tired... and resting and having a good night sleep is not enough.
I’m sorry that I need to do this,
I’m sorry that I couldn’t see the light.
I’m back again at the tunnel, where everything is black and sad.
If ever I won’t make it this time, please know that I had so much fun knowing you and loving you all..