I'm so full of

want
want
want

and I'm

thisclosesoclose

to having
my stomach explode from the mound
of

f  e  a  t  h  e  r  s

I've been hiding in it
for over a month
now. I wish you would cut me open
and find them,
because I know only you would
understand
and maybe then we could be okay.

It's just that lately all I've
done is hurt
              hurt
              hurt

and I miss you more than I know how to put
into real words.