I still dream about it, that smile.
And i Know it's been quite a while.
Yet here we are, talking like friends.
But neither of us have made amends.
So familiar, this feeling of deja vu.
Yet who is this person, Who are you?
Is she the one I was sure was the one
or has all that bonding been undone?
It feels like we're just strangers now
wanting to reconnect, don't know how.
You're just someone I used to know
You left, felt you just had to go.
Everyone tells me to just turn you away
Not listen for a moment to what you say.
I want to, but I don't think I can
Maybe that makes me a much lesser man
The things you did were unforgivable
helping you shouldn't be on the table.
Yelling at you, cussing you out, anger.
No.  Instead, like a tool, I pay her.
Why cant I just let go, once and for all?
How long can I maintain this, until I fall?
I don't know you now, but I wish I did.
This obsessions starting to go morbid
Yet I can't just turn away or be cruel.
But how long will I have to be your fool?