I feel Used up Cleaned out Thrown away Cast aside Discarded Exploited Exploited Exploited Like twenty-two years Of making myself a beautiful person Was only for others to grab at And pilfer At will.
I never knew my pleasure Was at the whim of animals Of worms and wolves and vultures. I never knew I had to ask Permission To live my life unsoiled. May I? May I be loved? May I be appreciated and accepted? May I trust? May I have sole ownership of my body?
Someone pillaged my temple. It is now closed For demolition And subsequent reconstruction. It will be rebuilt With steel bars and security guards. No longer do I love freely and unabashedly. No longer do I trust others Or myself.
I have sewn my own head Back into place To stick my neck out again. I now wear the stitches As a trophy As a medal As a warning As a threat That I will never let you befriend me I will never let you touch me I will never let you in I will never let you close I will never let you hurt me I will never let you **** me Again.