lauren broke my stupor with a whisper,
"you're a slave to detail"
my trance was fixed on adam
and his shifty eyes,
his shaky lips.

lauren knew i was sinking claws,
"breathe, baby. think other thoughts."
my teeth were sharpening fast
off his sweaty brow,
his wavering hands.

lauren disappeared from me.
adam and me.

adam and
my ex.

adam and his lies.

"how can i rewrite my history-"

"what?"

"shut up,
how can i rewrite my history
if you dig her up?"

"what?"

"shut up,
adam you're a creep."

"i jus-"

"and you can't stay far enough away".

lauren grabbed my tensing shoulders,
whispered, "retreat".
my clinched fists didn't release,
nor did my stare,
nor my hate.

adam and his lies. adam and my ex. adam and his lies. adam and my ex. adam and his lies. adam and my ex. adam and his lies adam and my ex.