I open my window and let strangers' breath flow through the screen just hoping your exhale would be carried from miles away through my window and onto my neck. But I already know, I'm going to be cold in the morning.
I leave my door open so I can watch the shadows on the wall across the hallway smear back and forth past my room, just hoping your silhouette would walk into my doorway But I already know, the door will be closed in the morning.
I turn my music on to drown out the quiet to block the sound of plastic wheels on the pavement of the late-night-skateboarder to slur the punctual tick of the clock to wipe away the sounds of tears upon my cheeks. But I already know, the same sad song will be repeating in the morning.
I turn out my light and pale in the absence, hoping that when the sun rises in the morning and its blinding blaze slips through the slits of the curtains that your smile with be the brightest thing I see. But I already know, you wont be here to have your back turned to me.
I pull up my blankets all the way up to my chin and past my forehead baking myself in the smells of the sheets trying to find the scent of you left in my fuzzy blanket from the night in the field. But I already know, I lost that months ago.