that feeling you get when you can't stand something where you resent every moment of your existence living misunderstood throughout life that feeling of resentment towards one whose hurt you deeply where it feels like your heart has been ripped out replaced by a knife ever so slowly growing larger as time goes by like a hand around my heart squeezing until every drop drains away that feeling of looking in the mirror and hating what you see the being stuck in your mind with no clear path out the point where you punch holes in the wall trying to mimic what its like inside your head to the point of a pen on paper and text on this screen