I have a son who's on the run  angry as hell,  and says he's done.. in a voice so frail " mom, I don't love you. Why don't you just leave."  Just leave.. receive as it blows up in my face! I constantly chase try to erase! Tough I'm trying so **** hard! Letting down your guard.. always arguing and pushing me away.. what do I say? I love you son.. the look in his eyes like a loaded gun.. he's growing distant.. back when he was an infant.. I believed I would had made it further than this.. provide you pride.. and happy bliss.. now look at us.. the fuss.. because the life we had.. I watch the pain distort into tears when mad.. it's sad.. I couldn't give you paradise.. started over and over we paid the price... You say that you hate me.. never want to see me again.. but your only ten.. hold up your chin.. boy don't be coy .. something will eventually give and we won't have to relive.. the blast of the past... I'm struggling too.. no matter what I'll always love you.. let's take a walk.. talk.. maybe play a game? I know it's not the same.. and it breaks my heart. Where do I start? No money! Forgive me. As I watch you from the distance..so intense a broken child in denial... Lost his smile. I know what I say ain't always right.. is that what keeps you up at night? Is that why your always welcoming a fight? Unclench your fist and hold me tight.. it's going to be alright..