there is a moment between the decision to make a mistake and actually making it, when you think about
how the power lines make lace spiderweb shadows on the sidewalk and how the the sunlight and the moonlight have the same sparkle
and you wonder if your choice really matters, because daisies will still have candied orange centers and it will still take fourteen hours to drive to Bangor to an airport with
one bathroom and airtight security so they can take your toe nail clippers before you board your flight home and realize you left an hour before sunset and somehow it's underwhelming
to be so far above the
sun.
there is a moment between the realization that you've gone too far
and taking the step over the line
when you see the cracking of the pavement and go to buy a roll of duct tape because there's nothing duct tape can't fix so you spread a thin layer of love and adhesive on the concrete to keep the edges of your heart from
splitting open,
but you trip and fall into the hole you were trying to bridge
and you're right back where you started trying not to break your momma's back but the gap is too wide to jump like those kids on the playground tracing cloud colored circles in sidewalk chalk around your head just trying to make you understand. so before you decide
to make that mistake trace the lace shadows on the roadways and tape your heart together so you can draw a staircase to understanding
and
follow a trail of innocent eyes to a place where you don't feel so lost.
because there are no mistakes only choices to make and now is the only moment to make them.