i can't stand this feeling
i can't breathe
my head hurts
i hurt
i can't ******* feel anything
unless it's a manic heartbeat in my chest
unless it's feeling like i have to die
i have to write
i have to
i have to
i have to
and there is no saying otherwise
there is no pretending like i don't care
there is no calming down the heart beat
no calming down the breathing
nothing
nothing
nothing
you can't breathe
you don't deserve to breathe
until it's to late
until we've said we've done all that we can do
without even actually looking at you
nothing
everything
nothing
everything
i hurt
it hurts
i hurt
i wish that this would end
i wish that
i wish
i-
why did it have to be this way
why?
TELL ME WHY IT HAD TO ******* BE THIS WAY?
WHY
Why?


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