no matter how much
i try to keep
holding on,
change my ways,
and look in the
goddamn mirror
that i hate so much,
i just can't see
a different
kind of me.
crying myself
to the temporary
peace of slumber,
sometimes i wish
it would last
forever and ever.
don't you get
too close,
for i lose all
common sense
when i no longer
see the light.
i'm sorry.