Things I can do, there's just so much to do. I can go somewhere else, take time for myself. Explain what i'm feeling and know i wont always feel this way. Oh I can take a deep breath and smile once in a while it takes less energy than to frown, sure doesn't feel that way. Feel like I can't talk it out cause all they say is think about yourself. Think about what you can do to make it better. Well what are you waiting for just get up and take a walk for a while. Oh so you think I haven't tried, that I haven't walked or talked or smiled of course I tried but i just can't find a way for it to help me for it to stop the pain or for it to ease me. I try to focus on what's true but how can I know when I'm telling myself all these lies about how I know I'm fine. All this lying isn't helping the situation yet I'm screaming and you can’t hear me. Things I can do, there's just so much to do. I can go somewhere else, take time for myself. Explain what i'm feeling and know i wont always feel this way. Sure doesn't feel that way. All the voices in my head get so loud and I can just sit there wishing I could cut them out. I ask them to not talk down to me, but it's too late now. I don't even wanna think about anything cause in the end there's really nothing. So I guess I'm a let down, everytime i listen, and sit down it feels like you lecture me, wish we can just figure things out, well im sorry, feels like i wanna move outta town. But it's cool once in a while I check out but reality calls and brings me back, what do you want now? You wanna be friends now? Alright lemme put a fake face on so we can pretend now, you know you really messed this up, cut it off, turned around never looked back on what you did now. We can talk about the good times, the ones that never even happened. Why are you laughing? This isn't funny, not a funny situation. I bet you're laughing at yourself cause maybe you finally realized that you messed up and thought it was all a joke but no it happened, maybe i missed that joke, lemme see if i can see a reaction, no? Well at least you're happy! Things I can do, there's just so much to do. I can go somewhere else, take time for myself. Explain what i'm feeling and know i wont always feel this way, sure doesn't feel that way. Now make way the tears are coming, washing away the thin layer of happy I put up as a mask so you could walk away unknowing that you really messed up but you keep on laughing, must've missed that joke lemme see if i can find a reaction, no, but at least your happy.