my old bedroom window past the trees, where i laid on dead grass and had my first kiss we'd sit on my desk with a pillow from my bed my makeup done, i'd smoke a cigarette
i'd ride my bike on cobblestone when we'd take the bus, and he'd walk me home i'd see my own reflection as i ride by a shop window its late at night
still 17, sweet beauty queen if i recall, i was just as mean i'd wear fishnet tights, give him a kiss on the cheek, end scene.
now i'm only half a person now i'm only half alive now if i can bear to adore myself, i'm a fool for staying inside if it doesn't get cold in november if a sunny day breaks my heart i could go back to that party? how things were how things are
i stare at the skyline i stare at my hands i stare at a city i don't understand a place i can't trust, but its familiar too? a place that i hate, because it belongs to you
i ride my bike on a soulless road get homesick for places i'd never call home i see the same reflection as i ride by the same sad girl with the same sad eyes