Dinnertime
I ignore my mother calling me
Just as my stomach rumbles
Just as my stomach stings
And I am starving,
But I will not get up
Because I'm not hungry enough
I feel like I'm about to *****
My saliva has turned sweet
And I gag every once in a while,
But I will not get up
Because I am not hungry enough
I feel empty,
Like there should be more inside me
And I mistake it for an emptiness
That stems from depression
An emptiness that says something is missing
From only my mind
And not from how little I have been eating recently
It's not a disorder,
I am just not hungry
While other kids eat their lunch
I gather some celery sticks and some broccoli
maybe drink a little juice
And then I'm finished.
I'm not finished as in I am no longer hungry,
I'm finished as in I will not get up.
Because, although I am hungry,
I am not hungry enough.