i tried my hardest to do what was best
with everyone screaming in my ear
to 'let him go
let him go
you're better off'
and then him
in an audible cry from 2,000 miles away
'go on, leave
just like everyone else has
maybe im meant to be alone'
it weighed on me like the minutes on a clock
but i've searched
i've searched
and i don't see what else i could have done
but more painfully,
i don't see what i can do now
i feel nothing but sadness
and i don't know how to fix it
i can not please anyone,
surely not myself
every outcome isn't enough
if i go back,
i won't be enough for him
i can't even be what i was then
and that never met the mark,
and the other's will be upset
and they'll keep repeating
'you shouldn't, you're better off'
but if i keep walking,
both of us will go on,
sure, we'll survive
but i'll miss him forever.
and there will always be that feeling
the one that hasn't left,
that will haunt us both.
i don't know where i am better off
and i truly don't know where he is either
why does the decision fall on me?
maybe this was my choice the first time
maybe i should have let him go
and maybe that's what i should do now
but i don't know.
i just don't know.