I needed a break, From the break already given I needed one more day
Everyone has separate lives It’s busy on the streets Wait, It’s too busy
The cars are louder The lights are brighter Wow the air is thinner in here! Maybe something is off with the air filter? Everyone else seems fine I’m fine too
The face is called to arms I know this face I’m a master at it Years of practice takes over A smile appears Here we go
My brain My body My thoughts Terrorized I’m being attacked By my own thoughts
I knew I needed more time I wasn’t ready Here we go
YOU! STOP THE CYCLE!
The cycle can’t stop Why try?
My eyes flitter from face to face I’m acutely aware of every noise Wow that truck is loud
Over stimulation I hate this The more you try to stop The worse it gets
Dear Lord, I shouldn’t be driving I can’t concentrate Help me!
Ha! Funny Like you actually thought it could be helped You already take meds for it What else can you do?
Just Get Home It will be over soon
… Over? Oh great Always so optimistic I’m not leaving
I know the cycle I know it well He is here to stay At least for a while
Smile! You must smile It’s not pretending anymore It’s just… this way Just! Get! Home!
Oh thank God Home I’ll be fine No more driving
Step out of the car Don’t listen to the world Block it out
Block it out? You think you can just turn everything off? Gee that would be helpful
Stairs, One at a time
Step Step Step Step
Almost there
Step Step Step
Done!
Keys I need my keys The door,it’s locked I just climbed a mountain The air is thin Times running out Hurry
…. Okay Drop the face Tell him He helps
“Hi honey” “Hi” “What’s wrong?” “Nothing”
Really? The small voice?
Speak up! He knows you too well
I’m sitting No, im laying down I’m curled up It's still early morning I feel like its been all day
Arms… Arms? Oh that's right He’s here With me
Here we go…
Hahaha! Strap in!!
Every muscle…
Every muscle!!
Tight
Tighter!
The air is even thinner I can’t breathe He knows it He's forcing me out of my ball of limbs
I can't look up I hate this I hate that he sees this Im helpless
Minutes or hours Its over I survived Again
Relax every muscle One by one The last muscle is my brain Once I let this go I will fall
I used so much energy I can’t keep my eyes open I’m safe in his arms It's over. The mountain is gone