I just want to be like you.

I want to sacrifice my time for the people I love but now I hold that sacrifice over their head because they don’t know how much I do for them.
I wanted to love myself like you, mom, but now I’m just called a narcissist.
I wanted to show them what’s right but they’re angry I never admit what’s wrong.
I wanted them to look beautiful but now they say I shame them for who they are.

I just want to be like you.

I tell them how much I do for them because they don’t see it.
I loved myself so much that I didn’t leave room to love who’s around me.
I was so desperate to be right that I never admit when I was wrong.
I shamed my kids for who they were because I couldn’t bare to let them live a different life than mine.


I AM like you.
I’m more like you than I wanted to be.
I wanted to be the innocence I saw in you,
But now I’m exactly like you. And I’m terrified.