as the hands pray without the diver knowing, I ease my father’s ****** heels into the shallow end of a public pool.  inside your mother, a girl screams like a girl.  at home, my sister kicks herself for getting pregnant.  while beating his brother into the fence, our stock bully gives himself heat stroke and has to out his ***** before it disappears.  

I only have one memory of tugging at my father’s heart.  he checks for his toes, tousles my hair, and damns the lazy fish.