Jul 2010
You kept me up all night again.
I must be trying to keep you here for as long as I can after you've gone.
Most people would probably think, "it's not fair that I can't have you," but I don't think like that.
On the contrary, I still firmly believe that life IS fair... it just... doesn't always go according to how we plan.
If you forget me when you've gone, I won't be bitter.
I have no reason to be so.
You have no reason to remember me.
I never told you... I should tell you... that I... but I don't want to jinx myself... I don't want to jinx you.
Isn't it silly how I still believe in that jinx?
I want to tell you... but I'm not sure if I can.
I'm afraid that if I do, you'll be taken away.
For the short time that I dreamed last night, I imagined your return... that you would return because you missed me.
I dreamed that you would find me if I was gone from this place... that you would apear out of the blue... because people knew the secret between you and me.
I dreamed that when you found me, we shared a sound, sweet kiss... your strong hands at my hair...
or a hug that said the words that meant more than the ones we spoke...
and then for days after, we strolled the well-known paths together until you finally uttered the question I had been waiting for.
Then I'd say "yes" without hesitation and meet your mouth with my own...
Dreams.
What tricky things they can be.
There are some things I can't be certain of, but there are others I can...
The firmness of your gaze, the tilt of your smile, the sound of your voice and the sun in your kind eyes...
the strength of your back, the power of your spirit, the love in your heart for the work you do...
the peace in mine when I think of you...
My worth...
The beauty of my own heart when you look at me and speak to me.
I never thought my own heart would look like this, but through your gaze... I see...
I feel.
the world could vanish around me and I'd be happy if I spent my last moment in your presence.
You're probably awake by now... on your knees in prayer.
I prayed all night for you.
I'll pray every day.
When you've gone, I won't cry, but a million books in the world won't be able to express just how much I'll miss you.
When all of this is finished... will you remember me?
I must be trying to keep you here for as long as I can after you've gone.
Most people would probably think, "it's not fair that I can't have you," but I don't think like that.
On the contrary, I still firmly believe that life IS fair... it just... doesn't always go according to how we plan.
If you forget me when you've gone, I won't be bitter.
I have no reason to be so.
You have no reason to remember me.
I never told you... I should tell you... that I... but I don't want to jinx myself... I don't want to jinx you.
Isn't it silly how I still believe in that jinx?
I want to tell you... but I'm not sure if I can.
I'm afraid that if I do, you'll be taken away.
For the short time that I dreamed last night, I imagined your return... that you would return because you missed me.
I dreamed that you would find me if I was gone from this place... that you would apear out of the blue... because people knew the secret between you and me.
I dreamed that when you found me, we shared a sound, sweet kiss... your strong hands at my hair...
or a hug that said the words that meant more than the ones we spoke...
and then for days after, we strolled the well-known paths together until you finally uttered the question I had been waiting for.
Then I'd say "yes" without hesitation and meet your mouth with my own...
Dreams.
What tricky things they can be.
There are some things I can't be certain of, but there are others I can...
The firmness of your gaze, the tilt of your smile, the sound of your voice and the sun in your kind eyes...
the strength of your back, the power of your spirit, the love in your heart for the work you do...
the peace in mine when I think of you...
My worth...
The beauty of my own heart when you look at me and speak to me.
I never thought my own heart would look like this, but through your gaze... I see...
I feel.
the world could vanish around me and I'd be happy if I spent my last moment in your presence.
You're probably awake by now... on your knees in prayer.
I prayed all night for you.
I'll pray every day.
When you've gone, I won't cry, but a million books in the world won't be able to express just how much I'll miss you.
When all of this is finished... will you remember me?
Okay, so I wrote this a really long time ago when I was kind of getting over someone that I never actually had much of a relationship with. For reasons, I don't want to get into, we never got together... but the attraction was there, and it was pretty strong.
*deep breath* so this is a lot more personal than anything else I've posted in my gallery so far and I have to admit that I'm a little nervous about sharing it. However, I feel that I need to put it up.
I'd like to hear your thoughts on this if you have any.
*deep breath* so this is a lot more personal than anything else I've posted in my gallery so far and I have to admit that I'm a little nervous about sharing it. However, I feel that I need to put it up.
I'd like to hear your thoughts on this if you have any.
