I started a new kind of therapy yesterday. EMDR, Trauma therapy.
I didn't even realise I had PTSD until I read the emergency referral form.
and when the therapist asked me to tell her about my safe place - real or imagined - how could I say it was within the arms of a girl I chose to say goodbye to?
I couldn't. So I described the ruins where she first said 'I love you', and I hoped there was enough safety in those crumbling walls to shield me from all the hurt.