it is exactly 3:26 in the morning and i am a mess there is blood drying on my face my nose partially crushed to the right side a bruise darkening my left eye my wrist appears to be swelling possibly broken
i just stare down at the ground as if that will make it better it doesn't hurt, not really i mean, i've been in fights before i know how to handle myself and i know how to handle loosing
it is exactly 3:26 in the morning and i am a mess my posture is slumped and my eyes are empty completely devoid of anything that even partially resembles hope my jaw is slack and numb and all i can think about is how completely ******* stupid i was thinking this could ever actually work my mind is tired and possibly broken
it is exactly 3:26 in the morning and i am a mess i have work in four hours and a meeting with my boss about my chronic absence and i need to clean my house and make coffee and fix my face and hand and do laundry and make myself look some semblance of alive and working and i can hear the people in the apartment above me laughing drunk, probably, given the current time and i need to make my life less lonely less ****** up because i'm possibly broken