that feeling where your heart hurts and you just want the tears to spill, kinda like having a tooth ache and just wanting it pulled finally you know? that kind of sickness in your heart where you want something so bad and you know in your heart that you'll never get it you know? that kind of feeling where you stay on the phone for hours at a time just to feel good for once in your ******* life you know? i suppose you have some sort of mental stability left if you don't have fun with that