I always wanted a love that never fades
That special love that would always remain
But lately it feels live I've been wasting my energy
Longing for something that's constantly out of reach
Coiled into a position of permanent agony
It kind of reminds me of the time I kneeled down for you at your feet
Was it last chance saloon or an attempt at a 'Divine Liturgy'?
Whatever I wanted it to be
The results proved to be a failure of an unprecedented nature
Looking up to see your eyes of dissatisfaction was the final clarification
I blame it on all the times I mimed during hymns at church
I guess if I believed in a God, this would be Karma taking aim right into the depths of my heart
I can hear them laughing in the distance
As they take great delight in punishing this tyrant with a devastating scourge
Maybe I got it wrong
When I said I didn't believe
Maybe I got it wrong
When I said I'd never been in need
Maybe I got it wrong
... It feels like I've been saying that with increased regularity over the years
The worse thing about it is
I'm actually starting to believe it
With my backbone weakening from the weight of expectancy
I can feel my mind on the verge of collapse through entropy
But I'm not too bashful to admit
I've suffered with one too many aberrations
So if I want to find salvation behind the door
And I do desperately
You'd be the one holding the key
You'd be the one who could save me
That's why I'm offering myself up as an oblation
To remove every dark facet ingrained inveterately