monstrous memories
transmogrified
grew
shadows lengthening
limbs gnarled
snarling slowly
jaw unhinged, groteque
unwomanly
inhuman, keening
insufferable
agape
not hiding
unsightly
unseemly
aghast
antisocial
not shrinking
domineering, tight grip
expansive
expensive
emotionally spent
empty, still brimming
boiling over
hot tears and hotter
fire burning, belly
deep
tongue lashing
teeth mashing
unhinged
undone
stripped dignity,
indifferent
indescribable, ungodly
unprocessed
repressed
buried beneath
shameful
blame-filled
too full
spilled
spoiled
still, surviving
soaked in indignity
stationary
unsteady
crawling, back
to myself
not ready
not waiting
not relenting
no forgetting, forgiving
myself for feeling
repealing
relentless reticence
regaining feeling
in every extremity
flexing muscle
memory
awakening
concrete cracking
fresh pain, relieving
aches
answers, rediscovering
remembering
readjusting
ready
righteous, taking
final form
furious