i envy the people
that have never experienced
pain or
disappointment,
they know not what the world holds.
i envy the people
that have never held
their mother
as she feared for her child’s life.
i envy the people
that have never looked
at someone
and only seeing pain.
i have longed for
is simply
the ability
to reverse time,
to where i never
experienced pain,
listen to my mothers cries,
ever looked at his face.
i envy
your ability
to forget
as though
i never
even
existed.