Turn it around for yourself. Within yourself. You don't have control over everything. Sometimes it's overwhelming.
But you deserve to give yourself the opportunity to feel better than life lets you feel. Escape through yourself, feel it inside. Look it in the eye. You are the shining light and colours that are blowing.
Your movements are the feeling and the feelings are the movents. It's you embracing you. And the universe is everywhere. Even in this place of terror. So are your soul sisters and brothers.
You are medicating yourself with toxicity. Because there's no place for you to live around here. So you have to be a portal, let the truth come through. That's how the trash gets out. Or at least is not around for a while.
What used to make you happy? Dancing to that song, feeling like it was still possible to have the energy. To enjoy being alive. Inspired by a person or a movie.
Now there are soothing voices of good artists that have passed away. They made their final albums even after they had died. But most of them embraced life enough to want to delay that day.
And you are trapped in a loop listening to all they had to share. And you are still growing untill you join the team of people that feel close to you already. Some won't dance with you.
Some just speak through the sounds they used to make. The energy still runs deep. So deep that when you inhale it, you get shiffers all over. Sometimes you beg them to make it stop.
But it's a loop. Turn around and see how much you've grown. Last year you were young, even in your face and movements. You danced and sang two whole perfect days after a week in hospital.
Some family and friends watching. Some watched you dance and sing. Some only got to watch you in that uncomfortable hospital bed.
Turn it around for yourself. Within yourself. The noise will not stop by itself because you give everything. Things will change and turn and twist you. Listen inside.