I know I must forgive you
forgive you again for what you did
What you did to me
The way your hurt me
Scarred me for life
I know I must forgive you
Rather than envision hurting you
Making you cry as you made me
Making you bleed as you made me
Making you fall to the ground in agony,
as you made
I know I must forgive you
I must forgive your lies
I must forgive how you used me
I must forgive all the time you wasted
I must forgive you for saying you loved me
When you loved her
I know I must forgive you

But then a curious notion creept into my mind.
I must forgive myself
I must forgive myself for going back to you
For believing you could change
For having hope in someone I knew to be evil at the core
I must forgive myself for being weak
Pathetic
Desperate
I must forgive myself for allowing you to hurt me again
Giving power once
My heart
My spirit
My smile

I must forgive myself.



***** forgiving you