Losing you Like realizing you have no air Like falling into the deep cold ocean Like being trapped in the dark Like grabbing for life but finding nothing
A part of me wants to To say day after day that I am fine To just put up with an image Even though its not what I want, I can manage Keeping everyone happy except one But if they are all happy, aren’t I?
Walking over to end it Feels like an empty desert where I can't see the end Without water, without help I don’t think I will get through this on my own But I have to rely on myself The words stream through me head of how to say it I look into his eyes for the first time in months And every inch of me wants to turn around To forget what I felt, to just like him again I could never hurt him like I hurt the others I barely can utter hello before he realizes something is wrong Before he can ask, I have to start Everyone said I would have to free myself to be happy But getting there is drowning me in worry And as I speak the words, his face loses all happiness The last months were nice, But now they are meaningless memories. I cant bear to look at him any longer I feel like a monster And as I finish, I cant see a light at the end of the tunnel I just want to give him a hug and cheer him up But I know that wouldn’t help I just have to leave him alone And remember that I did this to him.