I dodge most every postcard to be washed away in defeat because there's something about self destruction that keeps the world off my reality other people spitting dust bunnies when they speak clouding my language with their foul mouthed debris becoming a mountain of dirt I can't get over these words for real aren't me I am becoming a valley where I hide between the outside of everybody and my wildest dreams From the tops of moments I breath in slippery slopes and hold for backporch memories the neighbors are away so it's ok to get loud and free my darling there are the cattails from your mamas creek connected to the dots that I trace back through memories from my perch upon now my junkyard soul noticing wheels that are missing from the things they were made to roll into a tire swing into racing streetlights for scraped knees turning to children remembering a wedding ring because we told them marriage was how you take honesty and make it concrete before we took their honesty and made it history I am trying to build something that wont blow away with the leaves oh I turn red blushing blood though my veins that are like trees bound to be framed in some hillside autumn landscape of me with words that have always been too vague to translate my name but as I grow that's subject to change as is everything so I'll consider of what I am made and all that water may wash away all of desire's delays turning fatalistic denial into some authentic decay