I want you to hurt as much as you hurt me. You snaked your way in, made it okay for me to be near you, made it great. Then you pushed me back out again without warning. I wanted you and everything you ever wanted to be. But now I  want all that, and to cause you pain. I want to run my hands though your hair, then rip it out. I want to kiss your neck, and then bite into it. I want to hold your head to my chest then snap your neck. I want to bring you in so close that you feel safe, then ruin you. But I couldn't. Because this is my first time admitting that I love you... and the first time admitting I hate your guts.