I ran away with my resentment Hypocrisy bred under my skin infecting my chest cavity & weighing it down.
I suppose I smoke now to try & aerate my ribcage. I'm sorry that I took off that day in February & never returned. (even you didn't deserve that)
Somewhere between life & death, Somewhere between hate & love, Lie my thoughts I see that vast abyss in your eyes.
I cannot swallow emptiness & no longer will choke on your cancer I'm sorry that I no longer look at you & that I no longer reply.
I am only trying to cut the cord lest it tightens & suffocates me when the tension mounts God forbid, if I were alreay kneeling. (I think I would surely collapse)
See now, (or maybe you don't) all this scar tissue from former battles ? I have now abandoned the combat & wait patiently for your last breath. (a war of resistance not offence)
Do not despise me for giving up, It was your example I followed & I saw, even Christ, perished for the sins of others (I want to be alive)