you are the opposite of what I've known to be love
and I am the middle ground to fall back on

rejection and disinterest
swirl in my mental
as you say
ever so gentle
that you're obsessed

swirling, I turn
looking for return to ease
and surrender only to me

to you I'm distant
to me I'm eerily insistent
on my safety

if in the midst
of my failure to consist
you stay

perhaps I can fully learn to love
one day