"i am happy today" you repeat
over and over
until you can't speak
where you're still tearing skin
"i am happy today" you repeat to yourself
you know no one will care if you're sad
no one will ask you if you're okay
"i am happy today" you say while you cry
while the pills in your fist are unable to be concealed
while you choke on your heavy heart
"i am happy today"