why are you so scared? I whisper to every pair of lust clouded eyelids as they float above my pillows; manhandled by unfamiliar fingers and bent to accommodate strange strands of hair against their cool cases
they fight to hide the fear, they fight through kisses and spankings and false encounters of meaningless embraces
they enable fright as it oozes out of their ears, surrounding their bodies in layers of impermeable slime that not even the needle of a lovers touch could penetrate
so I'll never understand the paradox as they cling to me-- flesh to flesh-- with desperation don't leave me alone* but repel my same soul so I may never touch their truth