how is it that someone who makes you most happy can also make you go madly insane?

insane that you fell inlove after promising yourself you wouldn't again

it brings you to drawing a blade across your own skin when you fight knowing its your fault

to having thoughts you would be better off gone and they would be happier without you

but then, how does it manage to make you happy to?

because the good overpowers all those horrible things

the feeling of butterflies
neck kisses
arms wrapped around you

the best and worst thing in the world for me
is
you