"There is always one woman
to save you from another
and as that woman saves you
she makes ready to destroy"
Chinaski taught me that
when I was still in
high school and looking for
answers in poetry books.
I managed to find few and
far between in those four years.
Then I became a college
student and my hunt turned
to the wilderness of
crowded bars, living room floors
and enough pills to
swim through
only to drown in the deep end.
I caught my breath in three years
and surfaced to a job I hated
in a town I loathed
but always called
home.
I kept my company but they
never sought to keep me
or so I tell myself.
Really I used every last drop
of them I could get
before the next one rode along
because of what Chinaski told me.
But this one won't ride along again
and I fear the day she does
because
Chinaski might be wrong.