i am things that don't exist
by hypnopunk
i've been through nuclear winter
wishing to vanish, believe me -
wanting to let it consume me -
and no one suspected a thing
i've stifled every bone tremor
and denied every visitor
for nothing. a slow kind of death
with lucky days sewn into it
fragments of time are dissolving
every hour inside my head
leaving only outlines in dust
leaving all the damages done
the evil's been born already
across cold water, luminous
all of its wounds on the surface
all of its scars in their glory