You hang up your mental disorders like trophies on a shelf. Mental disorders, of course, that you diagnosed yourself. Since when did it become glamorous to dream of an early death? To sit and fantasize about where, when, and how you'll take your last breath. Seems to me like creating this so-called poisonous mind is doing nothing but damage and making you blind. Blind to others around you, people who are actually ill. People who don't showcase their disorders- but instead swallow them down with a pill. So before you post results to another online "find out what's wrong with me" test, I would suggest looking up the symptoms of actually being depressed. So swallow your pride, and if you will, leave the diagnoses to the doctor- choose to glorify positivity instead and allow your mind to prosper.