Drowning.
I'm ******* drowning
No one can save me
Not even myself.
Drowning.
I'm drowning slowly
I cant fight anymore.
It isnt anyone's fault but my own
I'm suffocating in isolation
Suffocating in my own body
I tried to just stay afloat
But I just cant
Every decision
And every choice
Is a direct consequence
That fuels my inner pain.
You finally saw
And I'm sorry you did
I never wanted you to see
How much pain I'm really in.
I wish I could fix it
But I just dont know how
There is nothing left to grab
Nothing to hold on to.
No lifeguard to jump in
And pull me to safety.
Theres just endless water
With me out in the middle
And nowhere to go but down.
It isnt anyone's fault
This is my demon
I was born this way.
How the **** I survived this long
I dont ******* know.
I'm sorry I ruined it all
Sorry you had to see and hurt
This wasnt supposed to be your pain
It's only my own