Why have I not see the truth behind the words that I can't see? I know they're there but I can not feel them and I feel so lost. I feel like I'm stuck in the middle of the desert, aching for water and love. aching for any type of life. I need people so understand why I can not feel the love and compassion I'm getting.

I do not feel I deserve it so I do not accept it...

sometimes I can't sleep because I'm stuck thinking about life and why it's so unfair.

why, why, why?