I love your laugh
all your simple minded jokes
the way you admired me
but I don't want too
because
even with all those great moments
there was a part of
me ..
You
that I didn't know

you are not my sun
as much as
I am not the star
in your life anymore
I can't bear with the thought of that
but I simply
just go on with the greys and accept it

sticks and stones will always break my bones
but you my dear boy
will always break me the most

j.f