So I will tell you this.
My body is breaking.
I spend my nights in agony,
screaming,
bones writhing.
But I will tell you it's dedication.
I'll look at your past-
what you thought was a shining future-
I see you look at me like a stranger
A monster
A product of standards
Skinny-
Athletic-
Talented-
Forced.
But I will tell you it's dedication,
something required,
Something you've never had.
I'm sick
I'm suffering
But Lord
I have dedication,
Dedication is all it Takes-
The Will
The Need
To have it.
My frail bones are shattering
but dedication is all I need
Dedication is the sick habit
that has overtaken my body
Dedication.
Dedication-
to this life
Dedication to this illness
To create something...
Something... of myself.