You know I’ve had a rough year
It’s made me appreciate why I’m here
This year has taught me a lot
A lot about myself that I forgot
I forgot how to love me for me
I changing can’t you see
our time apart has been really hard
And Honestly I’ve put up a guard
I never want to hurt like I did again
So Personally I am against all men
They brought me down to much
I used to need a man and his touch
I relied on men for my own happiness
And I realize now that was ridiculous
I’ve learned to be happy alone
And to be okay on my own
I want things to stay the same
I don’t want to add feelings or games
I know to you this is strange
But you see this year I’ve changed
And I will not keep my mouth shut
Bout this feeling I have in my gut
A bad feeling down to my core
This feeling I cant ignore
That I am messing with my happiness
If we got back together w/ our naughtiness
And my happiness is now # one
So I am down to still have fun
But only for a day or three
Cause I’m still working on me
And I’m not ready for a man
I’m not ready to make plans
I don’t want to hurt like I did
So I’m keeping myself Closed w/ a lid
I am taking it day by day
Cause I like it this way
I’m sorry I’m not the same
I think cancer is to blame
I hope we stay in touch regardless
To me that seems harmless
For now this is how I feel
You know me just keeping it real