Its been like this for so long
I don't remember when it first happened
maybe it was the first time I saw you smile
Then again, maybe it was a coincidence
I could barely breathe
I could barely see the glimmer in your eyes
Maybe it was gone
like the innocence in my soul would soon be
Like my glimmer was too
I felt nothing, empty and yet present
Frozen as I felt every limb in my body paralyed
I could hear your footsteps each time 
Step, creaking, step, A deep sigh
I know you're there
I can smell the rotten breath you breathe
I squeeze my eyes closed
Late at night after the beer
After your wife said no
You sat on my bedside stroking my hair
Calling me baby girl
To you I was anything but a girl
You used to read me bed time stories
Now I replay stories in my head
I watch from above
While you whisper in my ear
Wake up darling
You will miss the stars
I'm to old to fall for the stars line
Yet he says it anyway. I do not move
Staying as still as possible
Hoping this is the night he will give up
But we both know he won't
Limp i stay
Dreaming of a place far from here and daylight
I miss the light that comes in nights place