I realized that I didn't actually love you
I only loved how you made me feel
and
who you were
but I was young
and
I thought that the way you made me feel
was love
the way you would
     listen to me
hear me
and
     promise me things  
you were like the petal and I was the rose
and
just like the petal
you soon started to die
and
eventually f
                      a
                         d
                             e    
                                                             ­                                       away

you lied to me and broke your promise
when you said you'll never leave
I lied when I said "I know"

because look at us now
you're at your house
  laughing
and
  talking
like I was never in your life
I'm here
  laughing
and
  talking
like you never were in my life
and
after all I actually think I'm going to be okay

j.f