Suicidal tendencies can follow you throughout your life
This makes arrival to old age something to really celebrate

An alcoholic makes it that first year
An addict finally beats their fear

The thoughts still return
The guilt and the pain

Maybe I deserve this in some way?
There is a distinct pleasure in the cut

Running a blade across
and watching the blood run

It's a battle I'll fight from day to day
Hoping one day to celebrate my old age